Rewards and Punishments
I find that there aren’t really rewards for doing everything you’re supposed to do in everyday life, but there are punishments if you don’t do them. If I don’t do my household chores; dishes, laundry, groceries. Then I will be punished with no clean plates, or clean socks, or food. But there’s no special prize for doing them, things just carry on normally. No one gets an added reward for good housekeeping. No one gets a party for successful adulting.
So how do I know that I’ve earned a reward?
If praise comes from within, how do you know you’ve done enough? and how large a reward have you earned?
– I’ve never been sure where some people get their confidence from. Are they spoiled for believing that they deserve luxury goods and indulgences, when they haven’t worked or sacrificed to have earned them? or should all people be encouraged to reward themselves on any given day for no good reason?
Should I accept an unhealthy dinner option if I haven’t exercised that week? Can I even call it a reward if it hurts me in the future?
How can I be kinder to myself within reason, so that I am not robbing myself of an opportunity later in life, and Learn to express my self-compassion in moderation, so that I’m not getting in my own way.
These are all things that I quietly think to myself in moments of painful indecision.
Of course it is still possible to be punished instead of rewarded even when everything is done correctly. If someone is exemplary at their job, they know that they’ve earned a promotion, but if they’re too good at their job, management will keep them at the task that they’re best at. And they do not get a promotion. If that industry is shifting, eventually, that skill will either become outdated or outsourced for a cheaper option.
I could be the most dedicated gardener, but still not have any flowers. It’s not a punishment to not be successful, and It’s not a reward to be sucessful.